flashtastic

061006.04.13 detached by consumptionthis side of...

0610
06.04.13

detached by consumption
this side of me
unchanged
expressionless
recalling ideas
i'd long-since forgotten
though nothing is the same
the extractions
bleed me dry
of passion and desire
deadly obstructions
held together
by duct tape and uncertainty

060906.03.13 no more examplesof tangerinesthe sweet smell...

0609
06.03.13

no more examples
of tangerines
the sweet smell replaced
by the taste of failure
the desktop is clean
like this soulless caldron
empty
where nothing makes sense
but the dust and hair
stuck together
every where it shouldn't be
like the heat
and the glare

060806.02.13 take meuse methrow me awayit doesn't...

0608
06.02.13

take me
use me
throw me away
it doesn't matter
how long you stay
as long
as i know
your pain
comes directly
from me

060706.02.13 hold meagainst your chesttightly

0607
06.02.13

hold me
against your chest
tightly

060606.02.13 i used to daydreamfor hours on endthat i was...

0606
06.02.13

i used to daydream
for hours on end
that i was happy
and that my dreams had come true

i used to daydream
i was someone better
that i had found hope
escaping the only life i knew

i used to daydream
life had meaning
because of a lover
who doubled as a friend

i used to daydream
of someone beautiful
who i made laugh
and longed to make me smile, too

i used to daydream
that it was forever
the silent smiles
and uncharted walked

i used to daydream
that my wish for love would be granted
and every day
felt vibrant and new

i used to daydream
about reality

i used to daydream
about you

060506.02.13 i dreamtyou were tied between two trees the...

0605
06.02.13

i dreamt
you were tied between two trees
the night
your only lover
with arms bound
and a stigmata abscinding your chest
you pleaded with me
to pull out your heart
and take a bite
but i said no
because i don't like to dine alone

060405.29.13 stealing timei peak around cornerswatchingas you...

0604
05.29.13

stealing time
i peak around corners
watching
as you sip your morning coffee
and afternoon tea
unaware
of me
tapping my fingers
and bouncing my leg
waiting
for the passing glances
and fractured smiles
that accentuate
my fondness for you

060305.29.13 where have you escapedmy frienddid you find freedom...

0603
05.29.13

where have you escaped
my friend
did you find freedom with the wind
or has the air
left your chest
shrouding your face
with the nearest arcs of rainbows
if you are well
remember me
when sly smiles cross your lips
and the pulse of your heart finds momentary interruption

060205.29.13 against gallery wallshours, blood and tearsa way of...

0602
05.29.13

against gallery walls
hours, blood and tears
a way of life
subjected to normality
step away
from the window's ledge
this is just a momentary derailment
not an evolution of fears
breathe in the turpentine
while it lingers
these creaking floors
have more stories to tell
succumb to synthetic dreams
as each stroke
slow and deliberate
brings hopefulness back to reality

060105.29.13 don't shy awaydelicate loverfor tonightwe...

0601
05.29.13

don't shy away
delicate lover
for tonight
we shall dance
with the darkness
illuminating
our shadows

060005.27.13 in lusti ragefrom a effigyemblazednot from...

0600
05.27.13

in lust
i rage
from a effigy
emblazed
not from stimulation
but regret

059905.27.13 it is almost timeto hide behinda fake smile and a...

0599
05.27.13

it is almost time
to hide behind
a fake smile and a form-fitting dress
pretending
that everything you say
is a thoughtful hymn
nodding in agreement
despite knowing nothing about what you said
i'll excuse myself
to powder my nose
and check for messages
from the one person
who never condemns my lifestyle
i'll type quickly
before hitting send
and hurrying back to black ties
waiting
until i can retreat once again

Thank you, hellon-anangel, for the submission.
(Submission made with the request for identity to be disclosed.)

059805.26.13 if you can't thrill methen please -...

0598
05.26.13

if you can't thrill me
then please - don't waste your time
because burnt knees
are nothing new to me
i want something more constructive
an evolution of desire
lust-filled motivation
is often wasted on a smile

059705.26.13 i knew you when your hair was longerand, like your...

0597
05.26.13

i knew you when your hair was longer
and, like your eyes, a dark shade of brown
we'd sit across the table
and i'd occasionally laugh when you'd frown
there were always whispers
but there was never any truth
i'd say goodbye at washington st.
and would then loose sight of you
i never thought i'd see you
on a nondescript subway car
i didn't even recognize you
until you said hello
but when you did my spirit swelled
and we began to talk
time lost all its meaning
as we ended up miles past our stops
your laugh was as i'd remembered
from more than a decade ago
but i was so much different
though my looks remained the same
this midnight reconnection
was serendipity at its best
whether the start of a second chapter
or just an overdue, impulsive fling

059605.26.13 i woke up alonefor the first time in weeksa...

0596
05.26.13

i woke up alone
for the first time in weeks
a victim
of my own self-doubt

059505.26.13 like unwrapped candyi'm melting in your...

0595
05.26.13

like unwrapped candy
i'm melting in your hands
smiling with uncertainty
breathing
in muted sound
my anticipation is building
with each shot of gin
eyes locked
wanting
the tension to never end

059405.25.13 i was ready to give up; give into a world who was...

0594
05.25.13

i was ready to give up; give in
to a world who was using its might against me
battered and bruised by the blows
i was tattered; listlessly wondering about
until your hand reached out and grabbed me
drawing my feeble body into your chest
it wasn't seduction; nor was it doubt
you taught me more about myself
than i thought circumstances would allow
and did so without explanation or malfeasance
i am now a disciple of your discipline
it is the lone ideal with which i not live without

Thank you, thelittlestonedfox, for the submission.
(Submission made with the request for identity to be disclosed.)

059305.25.13 midnight mistcoating the night with...

0593
05.25.13

midnight mist
coating the night with danger
collectively scrapping together
enough common sense
to venture out from this sanctuary
laughter and regret
exit one-by-one
until the chase begins
between red and blue
victory is returning
it isn't home
but it is an opportunity
to celebrate

059205.25.13 there you arethe girl next doorpart imaginationpart...

0592
05.25.13

there you are
the girl next door
part imagination
part dream
what happens
behind the blinds
from which you
occasionally peak
are you lonely
when your light turns out
does the world overwhelm you, too
i wonder what you'd say
if i asked you

059105.22.13 my life has been filledwith people who never say...

0591
05.22.13

my life has been filled
with people who never say goodbye
they just slip out a door and leave
with no argument or reason
each time
i'm left to feel
as if a pound of flesh has been taken from me
oh, jealous lovers
what is it that i did
beyond staking a claim
to what should have rightfully been mine